Friday, August 15, 2008

Rushin' around

Someone who has traveled widely in Russia can be considered well-verst.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

The Beauty of the Sea

Our family took a trip out to the beach this afternoon. Typically, in Nova Scotia, the ocean doesn't get warm enough to swim in comfortably until September, but today it was warmer than I can remember.

Even though my wife & I spent most of our time looking after our kids, we did get some time to swim. Swimming in the ocean is my favorite aquatic experience. When I'm swimming or floating on some large waves, I feel especially the grandeur of nature. Something about looking up to the horizon and realizing the next stop is Bermuda is awe-inspiring. Plus, as the swells move me it seems like I'm traveling on the earth's heartbeat. I could stay there all day.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn 1918-2008

The Gulag Archipelago has been in my book collection since 1975. I attempted reading it back then, and found it rather impenetrable. Not that I didn't understand it; I couldn't fathom the viewpoint of an ex-prisoner writing a massive tome about not only his experience in the "system", but a veritable history of the system.

Solzhenitsyn was fascinating because of his experience of Soviet oppression and because, even though he lived in the US for over 20 years, he never became "one of us". In fact, his criticism of the US was as sharp as that of his home country.

When he returned to Russia in 1994, he was able to speak his criticism of the country openly, and had done so ever since, although he spoke approvingly of Vladimir Putin as someone who was restoring Russia's greatness.

About a month ago I began reading the
Gulag again. After 30+ years it is no longer so impenetrable. It is fascinating, illuminating, depressing, and terrifying. It is also a testimony to the difference one person can make.

Solzhenitsyn was never co-opted politically. He spoke the truth to power in a dangerous and bold way. He put everything on the line, and, although his particular vision might not have prevailed, he was vindicated by the fall of the Soviet Union.

He might not have been treated as a conquering hero on his return to Russia, but he has definitely left a legacy that demonstrates how a person can comport themselves with dignity in the face of monstrous tyranny. And tyranny is something we face in many forms, on many levels.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Finding Fulfilment

You may have noticed a title in the Books I'm Reading section called The Acting Person. Back in 1999 I read a biography of Pope John Paul II which mentioned it, which he had written in the 1950s. I found a translation on the internet and have been reading it slowly since last year.

The other day I came across an idea that is quite radical. He writes that human fulfillment is realized when a person acts authentically:

To fulfill oneself means to actualize, and in a way to bring to the proper fullness, that structure in man which is characteristic for him because of his personality and also because of his being somebody and not merely something; it is the structure of self-governance and self-possession.

It is radical for me, because I tended to think that "fulfillment" was about doing particular things that bring one outside one's everyday world, like skydiving, mountain climbing, anything exciting or extraordinary. Anything other than, say, going to work, cleaning the house, shopping for groceries, etc.

He goes on to say that authentic acts have not only an external effect (I cleaned the house, and now it is clean), but an internal one as well (I cleaned the house and was satisfied with my work; I know it is a job well-done). While the external effect is transitory, the internal effect is lasting. When one acts authentically, one is strengthened and validated in one's personhood.

This was interesting to me, because, in addition to seeing "fulfillment" as something extraordinary, I thought that I could be validated externally only, as in being recognized for a job well-done; if someone didn't notice it, it didn't happen.

I've had intuitions of this for a long time - nice to see that I wasn't totally out to lunch!

Surprise from Keats...

A few weeks ago I browsed through The Norton Poetry Anthology (Fourth Edition) and stumbled across a poem that contained my theme:

On First Looking into Chapman's Homer
John Keats

Much have I traveled in the realms of gold,
And many goodly states and kingdoms seen;
Round many western islands have I been
Which bards in fealty to Apollo hold.
Oft of one wide expanse had I been told
That deep-browed Homer ruled in his demesne,
Yet did I never breathe its pure serene
Till I heard Chapman speak out loud and bold:
Then I felt like some watcher of the skies
When a new planet swims into his ken;
Or like stout Cortez when with eagle eyes
He stared at the Pacific - and all his men
Looked at each other with a wild surmise -
Silent, upon a peak in Darien.



Sunday, June 15, 2008

The Saxophone

Yesterday I was at a music store to get my amp fixed. After dropping it off and looking for gifts for my kids, I browsed the music book section. Beneath the bins containing the jazz compilations, I found something called The Real Book - Sixth Edition.

This is a classic fake book that I've sought for almost 30 years. Back then, it was illegal and somewhat akin to bootleg LPs, so I was surprised to find it at all. A quick scan showed that it was now legal, published by Hal Leonard, but retaining the quaint, homemade look.

I had gotten The New Real Book back in the early '90s, but didn't like it. For one thing, I got the version with few of the standards that I liked. It didn't have Take Five, Blue Monk, to name a couple.

Last night I played through Blue Monk, Cherokee, and The Blue Room and had a blast.

My purchase was rung up by a fellow who is a reedman. I related a tale of woe to him about how I began my musical career on alto saxophone. I played in the school band for 2 years, and asked my mother if I could take private lessons. She signed my up at a local music store.

The "school" consisted of a bunch of small rooms with no windows. This was the place I would take bass lessons 9 years later, by the way. My teacher would come in, close the door, light a cigarette, and have me play.

I could barely breathe! I thought this was crazy, but at that age (around 9 or 10), I didn't feel comfortable confronting an adult about something like this. Besides, my mom smoked!

I couldn't continue under this regime, so I told my mom I wanted to quit. I didn't tell her why - I was afraid to confront her smoking even indirectly.

After hearing this, the fellow at the cash said empathized and informed me that they rent saxophones and other instruments. The thought had never occurred to me, although I considered taking up the sax again around 1983. Visions of tenors ran through my head, and when I got home I did some checking online, and concluded that if I rent a sax, it will probably be an alto to start with.

An odd feeling of anticipation followed!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

The Evolving Bassist

I've been playing bass guitar earnestly since 1976. For some reason, I resisted taking lessons for 3 years, learning solely from listening to songs on the radio and on records.

I was fortunate to have picked up on the patterns that music uses, and how they are applied to bass. I was blessed with a fairly good ear, too.

I signed up for lessons at the local music store in 1979. Sometime after this I picked up a method book called The Evolving Bassist by Rufus Reid. Over the years I've made at least 3 attempts to work my way through it, each time giving up. Why? I found the repetition (and mistakes) inherent in and necessary for mastering the exercises too frustrating. I wanted it all, "now".

Most of the music I played at that time didn't absolutely require the skills that would be honed by doing the exercises. Still, something inside me felt that I ought to do the exercises at some point.

My latest attempt at working through the book began in 2005. I'm still at it - a bit more than halfway through.

Over the last 6 years I've practiced more intentionally, intensively, and fruitfully. Working through books like The Evolving Bassist and Patterns for Jazz is immensely helpful.

Still, most of the music I play these days still doesn't require the skills developed in these books. As a result, I find myself somewhat over-prepared when I play, but I've come to the conclusion that this is better than coming to gigs as a kind of "blank slate". My focus is now on how I can best contribute, rather than on how I'm going to reinvent the wheel by spontaneous inspiration. Fewer unpleasant surprises this way.